Pit Dweller
So the truth is, sometimes I “dwell in the pit”, maybe I’ve even been doing it tonight. This is the pit of self doubt, the pit of insecurity and loneliness, sometimes worthlessness and uncertainty. I’m thankful that it doesn’t usually…
While She Sleeps
It’s after midnight as I slip into bed and find this little imp snuggled up cozy on Daddy’s side. “When did she slip in here? ” I wonder. And I stop, as all mothers before me do when the day…
Like a Superhero, She Fell
Unlike this dark and rainy day, the sun shone with promise, and a fresh crisp bite was found in the air as she climbed the ladder that would set her on a path she didn’t anticipate, one not welcomed nor…
Our Story
12 years ago tonight I was quietly sneaking in the side door of my apartment trying not to disturb anyone after my first date with Chad. I couldn’t have imagined my landlady was awaiting my return (had I even told…
When She Buys You a Fountain Pen
It’s been an emotional week to say the least. Tuesday I dropped Zoë and Eliya off for their first days of school this year (Gr 2 & 4FI) and although I will admit to being a wee bit nervous I…
Let Them See You
You should see her tonight, her blue eyes bright with possibilities. Her smile stretching from pink cheek to pink cheek as she dances on tiptoe around her bedroom floor. “Maybe I’ll make a new friend this year, maybe I’ll learn…
Pregnant with grief, God birthed mercy and compassion
As we celebrate Nathaniel’s 4th birthday this week my mind and heart have gone back to his pregnancy and birth again and again. In January 2011 I had returned to Haïti for the first time after experience the earthquake in…
The day I buried my childhood
I stood over the gravesite and for the first time all week reality hit hard. My cousin was gone. Thing is she wasn’t just my cousin, not at all actually. She was the greatest babysitter ever and though years had…
When being a Mom hurts
I remember it still so painfully 6 years later. I had given birth to possibly the most gorgeous baby girl and was entirely enamored with her. The haze and quiet that comes shortly after child birth and the initial hustle of…
When you’re not here
Another birthday has passed without you here and the loudness of your absence hurts my ears. As we laugh, eat cake and take pictures, I wish you were here holding my baby, making conversation in the kitchen, drinking coffee, reminiscing…
